What the eff?

Is it completely normal for a human being like myself to be completely content and satisfied with every aspect of his/her life and the next moment be overcome with confusion, apprehension, and disgust at the very things they were completely happy with just one moment ago?

Happy Birthday Mama;

I love you mama.
You are my everything.
Happy Happy Birthday Dearest.
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ipod;

oh shuffle, how i lovest thou.

There are 43 carcinogens in every cigarette;

I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked. I wish I smoked.
Maybe then I'd actually have a reason for having so many problems., not to mention I'd be skinnier and alot less stressed out.
Its common knowledge that cigs make anyone look desirable or 'hot'. Thats always a plus, right? It doesn't necessarily make you look cooler, BUT I don't smoke. Its disgusting, and don't forget extremely unhealthy as well. I'm fine with who I am. Life is good. Kind of. I wish I smoked.

But he's funny;

Thats got to count for something.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm not confused.
I know what I want.
I know what I need.
I just can't seem to bring myself to say it out loud for fear i'd be rejected.