It's 2009.

It's yet another new year, it doesn't feel different. I spent it in my usual ways only this time with different people at my side. It wasn't any better than last year, but it wasn't any worse. It was just another NEW YEARS EVE. Its just another excuse for me to "change". Its just another way for me to push myself to achieve higher goals, be a better person and just feel better about my existence. This is the point in my night where I tell the world of my hopes for the coming year. I have one resolution, it covers many things and it aims high. I want to achieve great things, but before I can begin a life that is happy and pleasurable I must learn one thing.
My resolution: to accept.
I've learned a lot in the few years that I've spent on this lovely earth, and lately everything is spiraling down to one lesson.
ACCEPTANCE. I need to realize and learn that the only way that I am going to be a happier person is if I learn to ACCEPT. I need to accept the man who claims to be my father. I need to accept that God is real. I need to accept the fact that my friends will come and go, they will get angry they will cry, they will be there, and they will even disappear (as i did for a period of time). They might come back, they may leave forever, but when it comes down to it, I HAVE TO ACCEPT whatever cards are dealt. I need to accept the fact that people can only change themselves. I CANNOT change them, I can support and I can influence but I cannot control the metamorphosis. This leads into the recurring project. I must learn to ACCEPT CHANGE when it finally does occur. I must foster it, nurture it, ACCEPT it. How could I possibly expect to transform the world if I can't handle change? I need to accept the things that are going on around these people and with me. That is my resolution for the year 2009, I will accept all things. I will accept why things are done. I will accept people, actions, thoughts, ideas, dreams, and so on. I have to. Without this first step, I can't move on and become something more.

I'm starting on my journey. It's 2009, why not? Join me, won't you?