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I refuse to cry over you.
I will not cry about this.
I am stronger than that.
I think.
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Calendar Girl.

"If I am lost for a day; try to find me
But if I don't come back, then I won't look behind me
All of the things that I thought were so easy
Just got harder and harder each day
December is darkest and June is the light but this empty bedroom won't make anything right
While out on the landing a friend I forgot to send home
Who waits up for me all through the night
Calendar girl who's in love with the world Stay alive
Calendar Girl who's in love with the world Stay alive
I dreamed I was dying; as I so often do
And when I awoke I was sure it was true
I ran to the window; threw my head to the sky
And said whoever is up there,please don't let me die
But I can't live forever,I can't always be
One day I'll be sand on a beach by a sea
The pages keep turning, I'll mark off each day with a cross
And I'll laugh about all that we've lost
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world
Stay Alive
Calendar Girl who is lost to the world Stay Alive
January, February, March, April, May I'm alive
June, July, August, September,October I'm alive
November, December, you all through the winter, I'm alive
I'm alive."
-Stars

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Sometimes I get the urge to ask her when the fuck she is going to grow up and get her life together.

its true;

Sometimes when I begin to miss you I'll listen to songs that remind me of you.
And in some pathetic attempt to make myself feel cool, I pretend that you do the same.

What the eff?

Is it completely normal for a human being like myself to be completely content and satisfied with every aspect of his/her life and the next moment be overcome with confusion, apprehension, and disgust at the very things they were completely happy with just one moment ago?

Happy Birthday Mama;

I love you mama.
You are my everything.
Happy Happy Birthday Dearest.
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ipod;

oh shuffle, how i lovest thou.

There are 43 carcinogens in every cigarette;

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Maybe then I'd actually have a reason for having so many problems., not to mention I'd be skinnier and alot less stressed out.
Its common knowledge that cigs make anyone look desirable or 'hot'. Thats always a plus, right? It doesn't necessarily make you look cooler, BUT I don't smoke. Its disgusting, and don't forget extremely unhealthy as well. I'm fine with who I am. Life is good. Kind of. I wish I smoked.

But he's funny;

Thats got to count for something.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm not confused.
I know what I want.
I know what I need.
I just can't seem to bring myself to say it out loud for fear i'd be rejected.

She lived in her own little world, with no regard to the people that surrounded her.
She consumed herself in fantasy and thought in a deep oblivion.