What the eff?

Is it completely normal for a human being like myself to be completely content and satisfied with every aspect of his/her life and the next moment be overcome with confusion, apprehension, and disgust at the very things they were completely happy with just one moment ago?

Happy Birthday Mama;

I love you mama.
You are my everything.
Happy Happy Birthday Dearest.
:]

ipod;

oh shuffle, how i lovest thou.

There are 43 carcinogens in every cigarette;

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Maybe then I'd actually have a reason for having so many problems., not to mention I'd be skinnier and alot less stressed out.
Its common knowledge that cigs make anyone look desirable or 'hot'. Thats always a plus, right? It doesn't necessarily make you look cooler, BUT I don't smoke. Its disgusting, and don't forget extremely unhealthy as well. I'm fine with who I am. Life is good. Kind of. I wish I smoked.

But he's funny;

Thats got to count for something.
I don't know what to do anymore.
I'm not confused.
I know what I want.
I know what I need.
I just can't seem to bring myself to say it out loud for fear i'd be rejected.

She lived in her own little world, with no regard to the people that surrounded her.
She consumed herself in fantasy and thought in a deep oblivion.

Come one, come all;

I'm redefining Jenna Lowery.
Its a change for the better, its a switch to the greater.
I'm reinventing myself.
Follow my lead.

The Improved Jenna Lowery;

This is alot harder than I expected.
I can do it.
I CAN DO IT.

Most of my tasks are rather trivial and simple, but damnit there are some things I feel like I can't do.
Help me.

Tell me I can.

Shuffle.

"Music can lift us out of depression or move us to tears"
And It can do so much more
Sometimes it even knows what you're thinking, Its as if the gods of shuffle want you to continually think, ponder and even dwell on all your past, present and future troubles.
The gods of shuffle can do alot to a person. They know what you're thinking, trust me.

Piano Song:

Every little thing I do, I do for you
With every little thing, I think a thought of you
And I try so hard not to notice
I try so hard not to care
I try so hard not to know that you're not here
But I'm counting down the hours
And I'm counting up the days
I try so hard not to show this side of me
-Meiko.

Ripe.

The dear words of Ben Lee:

The moon sheds light across the end of the bed
You made me wait but now I’m touching your leg
And I remember all the little things that you said
Quesadillas made with cheese and a rock band who were Japanese.
So for once
In my life I saw what I wanted
And took a bite
I picked the fruit from the tree
And it was ripe
Your love got big your jokes got worse each afternoon
Like Bacon at a bah Mitzvah like a lead balloon
And whose to say what really happened in that room each day
I was looking for a bride, you were looking for a groom.
So for once in your life
You saw what you wanted and took a bite
You picked the fruit from the tree and it was ripe.
And all you people are the heroes I’ve known
We’re staring off the edge into the unknown
We on our day? but we cannot go home
So we cry and we sing
Yeah I remember everything
How for once in our lives
We saw what we wanted and took a bite.
We picked the fruit from the tree and it was ripe.
And it was ripe, and it was ripe, and it was ripe.
-Ben Lee.