Emily Matthews revealed this to me just a few moments ago.
I just about Cried my tears all out.
:/
So yesterday was the one year aniversary of the death of this girl Lucia.
she OD'd on triple C but thats her own fault
It was really sad because she was loved by so many ppl and they just miss her soo much
Now my friend Nikki from cheer was really good friends with her and she was crying all day
This made me think of you
and reminded me of how much i love you and if anything were to happen to you how sad i would be and how i wouldnt be anything but a person who isnt really there
I know that you will probably go to college in Washington with Jesse or some place far, though i want you to go to UCI i know that its your future and you will go where you want to
Me and You, You and Me have just one year left together before you start in the real world.
No more Kaitlyn and Kirsten
No more staying up til 3a.m. just talking about life
No more amazing birthday suprises
No more scootering to the market, or screwing whatever diet that came to my mind by eating fudge, or peeing my pants after just going to the bathroom, or dressing up in the contents of your closet and getting jumped by baybays
No more us.
Just when i learned to play catch I only have one year to get good at it
Its me, jen, i need way more than a year
Just please promise me this, promise me that this next year will be the best
The Best for birthdays
The Best for parties
The Best for our friendship
and the funnest year of our life
Please just promise me that this next year will be unforgetable.
Maybe we could make a list of things to acomplish/do in the next year and see if we do it and we could track our progress with pictures like a scavanger hunt type of thing or we could make a box of stuff and bury it
This next year will be the hardest for me to over come and i know that before i know it i will be hugging you bye at the airport or in your driveway saying bye to you as tears come spilling down my cheeks with Marie at my side. And I will say to you how much i love you and how i will miss you SO much. And bye, your gone, leaving me with the memories of our last year and our life.
i love you with all my heart.
I love you too Emily Matthews. I'm so sorry.
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It's a cruel irony or a poignant truth that the grief you feel at the loss of someone is directly proportional to the love you feel for them. Of course it's different if they die than if they move away, but it's a loss just the same. So very many people love you, Jenna, because you love so many people. Your light shines so brightly that we all can't help but bask in it's glow. When you leave to shine your light somewhere else, we'll all feel happy knowing that you're following your heart, but we'll be sad for ourselves. I love you, too.
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