Again;

I still continue to serve everyone else before myself.
what happens when i finally help everyone get their lives together, and then mine falls apart?
I won't let that happen.
I've got the best grip this side of the mississippi.
Literally and metaphorically speaking.
I've got to keep holding on.

Sometimes i feel like everything is moving so damn fast past me and I'm just standing here in a blur of people, plans and time.
Everything is sweeping past me faster than i can catch on. All I need is one damn minute to take a breath, but it just seems like nobody is giving me that chance to breathe, It's my own fault though i suppose, I brought this on myself.

I could have changed it all, I could have prevented this all, but I didn't. I'm stubborn.
This is one thing I wish i could change. I've fallen behind. I will never be able to catch up at this rate.

I've got to get my priorities straight. I'm going to go try to figure things out.

First I need to feed my cat.

tis true;

Today was by far the best day of my life.
who would have thought that so many people actually care so deeply about me that they would be willing to spend a glorious saturday evening surprising me.

I never knew that so many people actually loved me that much.
I can't believe that my tiny little life meant the world to so many.


I love you.
without a doubt.
I love you all.
you all complete me and make me who i am.


I still feel like i'm dreaming..

I'm still speechless.

drained

I'm tired.
I'm weary.
In a sense, I'm zonked.
There is definitely too much going on, and i seem to keep blaming all the domestic problems on one thing, or one person, for that matter.
Its horrible of me, but i do it.
I can't help how I feel.
To live a life that is even half as cool as the people i associate with, I must run around in circles pleasing certain people and finishing everything.
Its a never ending cycle of stress and emotions.
But guess what world, I CAN DO IT.

Jesse, I'm coming over to play your piano.

It helps me.
I know its really lame.
[eye roll]

But i really enjoy playing.