Again;

I still continue to serve everyone else before myself.
what happens when i finally help everyone get their lives together, and then mine falls apart?
I won't let that happen.
I've got the best grip this side of the mississippi.
Literally and metaphorically speaking.
I've got to keep holding on.

Sometimes i feel like everything is moving so damn fast past me and I'm just standing here in a blur of people, plans and time.
Everything is sweeping past me faster than i can catch on. All I need is one damn minute to take a breath, but it just seems like nobody is giving me that chance to breathe, It's my own fault though i suppose, I brought this on myself.

I could have changed it all, I could have prevented this all, but I didn't. I'm stubborn.
This is one thing I wish i could change. I've fallen behind. I will never be able to catch up at this rate.

I've got to get my priorities straight. I'm going to go try to figure things out.

First I need to feed my cat.