Face it.

I finally realized something today.Its actually a pretty basic something and to be quite honest i've told myself all too often in the past that I understand this something. What exactly am i rambling about you may question, well i'm starting to realize that i can do it.
do what?
Handle my issues.
I have a few very close friends who are very near and dear to my heart who have indirectly, wihtout knowing themselves, helped me understand that my walk on the path of life can and will be accomplished given the right amount of faith, hope, tears and love. I have so much strength to make it through lonely days and so much power to stand up and say "I can!". If i want to change the world, i so most definitely can. I just have to get on with it. open my mouth. raise my fist. shake some fucking action already. there is so much riding on this. I have a future. i have friends to lose. friends to gain. people to meet. a lover to hold. old friends. new friends. i want so badly to make my life what i want at the snap of a finger, i want to travel back in time and relive old memories. but i have to realize that the world is moving forward and so must i. i can't live in the past. i have to get over things. move on. grow. prosper. fly the nest. if they can do it. i can do it. because i have Him. maybe one day the friends that i had that i knew were genuine will show up in my life again, but until that time i have to make the best of what i have. i've already made great friends, understood what matters most in my heart. now i just need to put all of those emotions into a bowl, mix it all around and figure out where my talents lie, because in the end we all want to change the world, right?? That's our goal- to make a difference. well when i find my niche, i'm going to do something about this word we call "peace". i want to live it, with myself first. once i find peace with myself i can work from there. inner to outer. one thing at a time.
I've lied before when i said i had it all together. now im not so dishonest. im really starting to handle it all better. change, here we come!!
I love you all.