Favoritist Things.

My List of Favorite Things: (In NO particular order)
1. Sidewalk chalking!
2. Eating fresh baked cookies in front of the YMCA fitness center window whilst the members work out.
3. Neck kisses.
4. Melon syrup in green tea from Starbucks.
5. Secrets
6. Lemon poppyseed scones.
7. Lemonade, Ice tea and other various refreshing liquids.
8. Hammocks!
9. Water Jumping in puddles.
10. Trapezes, Lears, and Ribbons.
11. Scootering in the rain.
12. Playing on jungle gyms.
13. Reading good books.
14. Wearing his jacket.
15. Cooking delicious meals!
16. Laughter.
17. Causing laughter.
18. Having hope.
19. Trusting and being trusted (The greatest feelings in the world)
20. Doing childish things
21. Fixing things. For good.
22. Acoustic Sets.
23. Living vicariously through other's acts of love.
24. Baking/cooking/creating
25. ELLEN DEGENERES.




To be continued...

Confusion has taken it's toll.

Lately I have been so consumed in trying to figure everything out that I have lost my idea of where I was going and what I was doing. I don't really know what to say or what to write anymore. I'm just kind of living. Just going forward, backward and probably even sideways. I don't know what I'm doing. I know what I want and I know how to get it, I'm just not really trying. That angers me. I can do so much, but I'm not doing anything! Ugh. I need to so much more. I really do. So here is my advice to myself. Stop trying to fix so many things, get a hold of the things you have and go forward. Go. Achieve. Do. You have so much power and potential. Act on what you can act on and stop thinking about the things you can't change or deal with. Its up to you to achieve what you want. Do what you can for now.




This is me smiling. :]

Its going to be a good semester. I am going to dance more, play more and smile often. Why not?

:D

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I'm angry.

It's 2009.

It's yet another new year, it doesn't feel different. I spent it in my usual ways only this time with different people at my side. It wasn't any better than last year, but it wasn't any worse. It was just another NEW YEARS EVE. Its just another excuse for me to "change". Its just another way for me to push myself to achieve higher goals, be a better person and just feel better about my existence. This is the point in my night where I tell the world of my hopes for the coming year. I have one resolution, it covers many things and it aims high. I want to achieve great things, but before I can begin a life that is happy and pleasurable I must learn one thing.
My resolution: to accept.
I've learned a lot in the few years that I've spent on this lovely earth, and lately everything is spiraling down to one lesson.
ACCEPTANCE. I need to realize and learn that the only way that I am going to be a happier person is if I learn to ACCEPT. I need to accept the man who claims to be my father. I need to accept that God is real. I need to accept the fact that my friends will come and go, they will get angry they will cry, they will be there, and they will even disappear (as i did for a period of time). They might come back, they may leave forever, but when it comes down to it, I HAVE TO ACCEPT whatever cards are dealt. I need to accept the fact that people can only change themselves. I CANNOT change them, I can support and I can influence but I cannot control the metamorphosis. This leads into the recurring project. I must learn to ACCEPT CHANGE when it finally does occur. I must foster it, nurture it, ACCEPT it. How could I possibly expect to transform the world if I can't handle change? I need to accept the things that are going on around these people and with me. That is my resolution for the year 2009, I will accept all things. I will accept why things are done. I will accept people, actions, thoughts, ideas, dreams, and so on. I have to. Without this first step, I can't move on and become something more.

I'm starting on my journey. It's 2009, why not? Join me, won't you?