Step 2. Letting Go

Its about time I start telling myself the advice that I tell so many other people. Its about time that I actually listen to myself talk. I talk alot. Almost too much for myself to comprehend, because you see... I have ADD. Now its time that I break up this process into steps. We've learned that we need to accept. We may not use it and apply it everyday, but we know that it needs to be done. We're starting to grow. We're learning. We'll get there. Now this was my sad attempt at transitioning to the next step of my progress of change for this new year. Its called letting go. We've accepted that something was wrong. We've accepted that we were unhappy. We've accepted that something happened. We've accepted the past and now its time to let it go and move on. Grow. Prosper. Here is the next challenge: Let go.
As for me its time that I understand the past so that I can leave it behind. I used to think that only a miracle wold help me move on. I have this obsessive tendency to let simple things chew away at me. I let moments of the past, expired empty promises and forgotten days eat away at me. I kept living in the past and focusing on what was done wrong so long ago. Some things were done right but never ended up working out. I never knew that the miracle I was anticipating was something none other than a shift in perception. We need to go back a few steps to go forward, so this is where I began my quest for resolving my issues of the past, so that I can go forward. The present is the only time there is. My miracle is a shift in thinking from what I might have done in the past or should be doing for my future to what I feel is right in the present. THe capacity we have for brilliance is equal to the capacity we have to forget the past and forget the future. The only meaning our past has is that it got us to where we are. It built our character. It taught us to love. It showed us the light. We are here because of where we were. Keep the good, let the rest go. Then what we are left with is the present. The opportunity to push forward, to go and grow and shape a new beginning. Create the start of something new. I've been struggling for sometime now with my past and the past of others. If it effects me I let it eat away at my heart and soul. It used to be an addiction I had. I was addicted to making myself feel sad and angry for things that people did. Its time that I, and whoever else may be reading this (Not many I'd assume) to forgive and move on. "Forgiveness is selective remembering. Its a conscious decision to focus on love and let the rest go." Let the moments of the past be your greatest teachers. Let the bad people of the past be the ones who test your capacity to forgive. It will make us stronger. Its easy to forgive somebody who has never hurt us before, but if one can forgive somebody for extreme amounts of pain, you can let everything but the good go and progress further into your future. I can't count the number of times that I let other girls pasts, Jon's EVERYTHING, image issues, beauty dilemmas, words or unfulfilled promises break me down. I let all the people of the past rule my every action of the now. I lived by what they did and how they acted. Oh she was so much prettier! Oh and she was so much more awesome! She saved the world! She partied! She was fun! They were happy. She was perfect :/ They were perfect. He hurt me. He lied. He left. She cried. Its built us all. Now lets leave it behind like birds do when they fly away. Focus on what's to come. What's now. Its time that we all realize that the only way to move on is to forgive and accept. I'm ready. I've sewed up the tears and goo-be-goned the carpets. Its going to be a great life. :)

Here's the challenge: Live in the present. Let go. Live. Smile. :)