I think it would be great to get away for a while. I really think its a needed action in my life. My life is like an ipod playlist set on repeat. The playlist is my favorite one i've made this year, it has great tunes and somber ballads. They're so monotonous to me now. I mean they're great songs, don't get me wrong, but I need change. Not just any kind of change. I need raw, self-induced, self-inflicted transformation. These songs are what I hear everyday, and their soft, beautiful harmonies have evolved into mundane noise that plays in the background of every scene of my not-so-dramatic drama. I have nothing wrong, no ailments, no death, but something is missing in my life, my love and my existence. I NEED something that I can't quite place a finger on what that just might be. I need to exist elsewhere for a while, before I make any rash decisions. I just want to to feel different. I want to feel more important, more real, more loved, more cherished. I am not needy, only blinded in love.
get over it Jenna.
Then do it. If you need change, then make it happen. Perhaps in small ways first, then if it seems to be "working" then change in larger ways.
ReplyDeleteAnd try doing something spontaneous everyday.
i say go for it.
ReplyDeleteby the way.
have you ever thought about writing for a living? i think you have a real talent for it. seriously. you really do.